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(#3) The Tree In Me - Sundays Best

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on January 25, 2015 at 3:00 AM Comments comments (0)

 

 

THE NOTHING THAT BECAME SOMETHING

 

The day I realized that nothing had become something was a day I will never forget.  The feelings that came over me in that moment were so big that I found myself unable to breath.  Full on heart pounding roaring panic took over as I desperately tried to take in some air.  "Breath Kel, breath!!!".  That's all I could hear myself saying.  "Breath, just breath damn it!!!".  Then through the waves of panic that were suffocating me, rose this voice of strength that came out of nowhere and found a way to calm the sea of fear.  So I breathed.  One breath and then another.  And before long I was breathing normally and everything else was gone.  All the feelings that had attached themselves to that realization had fallen away.  This image of one falling leaf replaced the fear and panic, and a moment of complete "ah" came over me.  I sat with that feeling as long as I could, soaking in its feathery lightness.  I loved that moment out of all moments.  I still do, and I bring it back to me whenever I feel fear or panic rising.  It's amazing to me how one single moment can mean so much.

 

So you're probably left wondering what the fear and panic was all about.  What was the nothing that I realized was something?  Have you ever reached a point in your life when everything you thought you were was nothing like the person you had become?  Well that was my realization!  I had spent my whole life accepting things about myself not because they were true, but because I had been told they were.  All this time I was living a lie.  I believed everyone else's truth over my own.  In moments of weakness I took the things that people had said about me and I adopted them as truth.  I became exactly what they wanted me to become.  And if that wasn't cause for fear and panic, then I don't know what is.

 

 

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(#2) The Tree In Me - Sundays Best

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on January 18, 2015 at 1:20 PM Comments comments (0)

 

THE EMPTINESS

I remember the day I took this photograph. I was focusing on the subject matter and getting ready to click the shutter button, when I felt this odd sense of connection to the tree.  It wasn't a good feeling at all, in fact it was a rather unnerving feeling. I chose to ignore it at the time, but later on when I was looking at the photograph again I remember thinking how cold and empty the tree appeared. There were just so many bare branches going in so many different directions that it made the emptiness of the photograph feel very overwhelming.  That's when I figured out what the connection was.  Yup ... this tree I had taken a picture of sadly represented my life.  Cold, empty and overwhelming.  No buds, no leaves, no colour, no movement.  Just a tree left to stand alone in it's own emptiness.  And in that moment, that's exactly how I felt. I tried my  hardest to outrun it, but for some reason the emptiness was faster than I was and always seemed to catch up with me.

So I did what was asked of me (by whom I am still unsure of) and I sat with the emptiness until I could sit no longer.  I turned it inside out, upside down, and front to back, and still I came up with nothing.  Which is ironic since the definition of emptiness is "the state of containing nothing".  So why was I looking to find something where there was nothing to be found?  I know it sounds crazy, but sitting with the overwhelming feeling of emptiness was one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life.  Nothing became the something that helped me change my life.   

 

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(#1) The Tree In Me - Sundays Best

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on January 11, 2015 at 7:00 PM Comments comments (0)

 

THE BEGINNING

As a photographer and photo therapist it seemed fitting that I turned to my camera for direction on my road to self-discovery.  In truth, I've actually been turning to my camera for direction since I was 16.  I was never one for words and so my photographs helped fill in the silence.  They gave me the opportunity to share what I needed to share, but in a way that only I could understand their truth.  If I am to be honest, my camera became my salvation.  And now ... well now I would just be lost without it. 

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The Tree In Me

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on January 11, 2015 at 3:15 AM Comments comments (0)

As a photo therapist most people make the assumption that I enjoy photographs.  That assumption would be correct, or at least partly correct.  The truth is I love photographs.  I love taking them, I love looking at them, I love sharing them, and most of all I love uncovering the meaning that was intended and the meaning that was not.  This love for photography that I have runs very deep.  In fact most of the photographs that I take, if not all, contain a genuine piece of me.  It has always amazed me how my camera has this unique ability to reach inside of me and pull out the emotions and feelings that need tending to, and create an image from them that magically speaks for itself.  What's not to love!

Up until recently I had been on a personal journey to find myself.  A journey of self-discovery and acceptance if you may, and one that covered 10 years and countless hours of shooting.  I would never have thought that it would take so long to get to know someone that I had lived with for the better part of 40 years, but it did. 

My hope through all of this was to uncover the parts of myself that had gone unnoticed and discover the parts of myself that I had simply adopted as being me.  The outcome was amazing!

Every single image that I took on my journey of self-discovery and acceptance that helped me find myself, was that of a tree.

I hope you will join me as I share with you my incredible journey of The Tree In Me.

 

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What's Behind the Silence

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on July 17, 2014 at 9:50 PM Comments comments (0)

Have you ever wondered what's behind silence? I often thought that silence was just a cover up for loud noise that had nothing of real importance to say. I now believe silence has a bigger role than just covering up unwanted noise. It's a place where thoughts have a chance to sit, feel, and mature; and become what they intended to be. Honest reactions to honest emotions. Silence is definitely golden!

On-Line Dating Frustrations

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on July 9, 2014 at 11:50 AM Comments comments (0)

On-line dating comes with it's fair share of frustrations. The Top 5 that I hear about are pretty common and understandably annoying. I would love to get your feedback on the Top 5 listed below and any additional frustrations you have encountered. Something big is in the works and your help getting it launched would be greatly appreciated. Following your comments and feedback a brief questionaire will be made available to you that will help with the developing process. And I send a great big huge thank you your way for helping me out!!!


Top 5 On-Line Dating Frustrations


1. Expensive Fees (monthly/annually).

2. Fear of rejection.

3. Uncomfortable meetings that usually end in disappointment.

4. Long and tedious registration forms and profile set-ups.

5. Extremely time consuming, checking websites and searching through profiles.


So there ya have them.  I look forward to hearing your feedback and welcome any other frustrations you may have encountered.

My sincere Thanks!!!





New Creative Advice Column

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on June 14, 2014 at 2:20 PM Comments comments (0)

Today is a very exciting day for me.  Today is the day that I officially launch Dear Kel my new creative advice column.  I am so passionate about this new venture and I believe that I have created a uniquely fun and inspiring way to address your problems.  Give it a try and let me know what you think.  I guarantee you'll be pleasantly surprised!!!




Changes

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on April 16, 2012 at 6:30 PM Comments comments (0)



I was riding the bus to my office today when I happened upon this photo.  I don't usually read the Metro, but it was on the seat I had chosen to sit in and opened to this photo.  It caught my eye immediately.  For me changes are a natural part of my existence ... I've made lots of changes throughout my life ... changes to my education, my hair style, my diet, my residence, my clothes, my job, my interests, etc ... the list goes on.  However, there is one thing that has never changed ... my faith in the nature of change itself.  I have always believed that change is good.  Yes, there are times when change comes unexpectedly or can feel incredibly bad, but without fail it sooner or later makes sense of itself.  If I'm patient enough and wait for the uncomfortableness to pass, change never disappoints. 

What are your thoughts on change?

 


What Do You Think About Therapy?

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on April 8, 2012 at 9:30 PM Comments comments (0)

What do you think about therapy?  Do you see it as a sign of strength or as a sign of weakness.  I'm gathering some information for an article I am writing and would love to hear your thoughts.  

Rude or Acceptable?

Posted by Kelly Gauthier on April 5, 2012 at 9:30 PM Comments comments (0)

I was always taught that it was rude to talk back.  However, no one ever said whether this rule applied to photographs or not?  I don't know about you, but every photograph I have in my possession has at one time or another had something to say; and sometimes they have more to say than I am willing to hear.  I find it very hard to ignore something that doesn't need words to convey its meaning and doesn't use sound in order to be heard.  The message is black and white. 


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