Self-destruction is a hard truth to swallow. Let's face it, passing blame is so much easier than catching responsibility. So choosing to be a truthful me despite everyone else's expectations was only half the battle. The other half came like the perfect storm. Years of judgement, negativity, and self-blame aligned itself perfectly to create an unimaginable turn of events. Drowning in the judgement of others is one thing, but drowning in self-deprecation was beyond words. The realization that I was the culprit of all the terrible things being said about myself was devastating. How could one person dislike themselves so much that they would be willing to destroy their own self-worth? It was the darkest of secrets I had ever kept, but one that I could keep no longer. This was my dark forest to walk through, not theirs.